26/2/11

In these days of overload and work, sometimes I find myself giving up on the small things in life. I kid myself that they aren't as important and that I'll have time for them at some other point in time. But today, I question myself? Will I have time tomorrow? Who knows what 'tomorrow' holds for us. It could be worse and it definitely could be better as well. Even among all the dilemmas, I keep one thing with me that I have learned from many of my friends, and family. That is to keep hope because hope is the willingness to want that hunger within oneself to strive for more. To commit to something impossible. To fight fears and live life to YOUR fullest because you deserve it! So, here are some lines that have summarized my mindframe at the time.

I feel like a teardrop escaping an eye,
Leaving the world of worries, saying goodbye,
To all I endear, complaining why o why,
Can't I just keep it inside and cry,
Put a curtain on it and spit a lie,
But my heart keeps goin' without a sigh,
Its persistent, saying 'the least I can do is try',

To believe and dream for a ray of light,
Keep praying and build faith and might,
So I can get closer to myself and take the ideal flight,
Cuz I'm done with the wrongs, its my time to do it right,
I see my vision, my journey, myself as a kite,
Defiant against a sight at this height,
I soar the clouds but fear the plight,

But I meditate, and pray for a way to my will,
Cuz if I can't live, I don't want to kill,
Myself in this world of moving stills,
I want to climb that mountain, but I'm gonna stand on this hill,
Take a break, and skip pebbles through this rill,
I don't care, I'll face consequences, I'll pay the bills,
But I'm crushing my fear through the mills,
And re-focus, re-gain and redeem and fill,
My veins with elixirs of hope with these pills,

And then the lights shudder and haze,
I thought it was my end, my last phaze,
My days were over but I was dazed,
By my own presence and faith, when I raised,
From my dis-ease and found the keys,
To my fortune of having a future to seize,
To work until I can melt and freeze,
Till its time to shine, when we glide like the breeze.

-Devarsh Pandya